VIRTUE PROFILE
4-12-00 POST RATED: Cojo, Personal Ad Profile to Myself
If I were to write a computer dating profile it would read something like this:
I love to write, to think, to dream. Creativity, Honesty, Humor, Wit, and Romance are my greatest virtues. I have a lot to give, and am a very caring person. I try to fill my life with beauty, but I find beauty in the oddest places. My idea of beauty isn't always what society deems beautiful, the beholder's eye being the camera lens shooting waif models is not for what I behold to be the know all end all of beautiful. Maybe it's just me, but skelital isn't "hot!" A protruding pelvis isn't a turn on. Kate Moss is about as attractive to me as a radiator wraped with latex.
As far as my outlook, I'm not an optomist or a pessimist, I'm a thinking realist (if that means anything). I live for the day with a strong grasp of the future. Most of what I do isn't planned, but is for the greater goal. Success and happiness. I just want to be content, and be the best me I can be (which is not easy believe you me). I'm constantly thinking, and creating.
I occasionally go bar hopping with friends (I'm a social drinker) . A majority of which are artists or writers and have great parties with stimulating conversation (many of which I throw). I could easily spend a night talking in depth about anything. I sometimes wonder if I am unique, or just evolving from a wild child with arty hipster parents into a yuppie drone with creative artistic tendencies. This troubles me at times, but not to the extent that I'd try to remedy it, I'm just going with the flow, if greatness lies in my path, then it will come. If not, then I'll get out the hedge clippers and shovel and make a new path. I'm dealing with the conversion from the starving artist student, to the thriving artist Manhattanite. It's fun, so why not roll with it.
I'm always looking for the next big "IT", in the beatnik sense of the word. The "IT", that people dream of achieving, bearing witness to someone's moment of glory, someone's living in the zone, on point, on fire, on the top of their game. Bizarre, New, Unique, Different, fueling my inspiration keeping me young, keeping me dreaming, believing in Santa Clause. Trying desperately to retain the kid I was and still am inside, breathing and living under the surface.
I grew up fast; I've always been mentally mature for my age. I look in the mirror and wonder who is looking back at me sometimes, but deep in the reflection I see him. The kid I once was is still in me somewhere. Always showing himself through my sense of humor. Through my humility. And I hold him dear to me. Never loose the kid in you. The day you do is the day you start dying.
